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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 11:56

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But, we were locked up after school.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Can you tell me a depressing story?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We all went to grammer schools

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Why do I sweat a great deal while exercising the same on some days and not so much on others?

What did i know ?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Ive learnt so much.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I think the readers, may guess!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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I don,t even have a pension.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i do to all so called friends.?

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why would my nipples hurt when I touch them?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was scared of men, in general

Im dying but, im not bitter.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I couldn’t, believe it.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But it wasn’t much.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

This is soul school!.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She wouldn,t have been !

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

All the time i was locked up.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Comes on , in middle age.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He knew the spot.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I write beautiful poetry .

We were not on the streets..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Was to survive, this bastard.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I was 9 years of age.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

(And it was in our own minds.)

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

It was going to be , some day.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My family never makes their pension either.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He resisted the act ,that day.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

One cannot live in the past .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was very sick at this time too.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She found it foreign!.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I have no regrets .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She married twice! .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Put me off passion for life!!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I never cut or harmed myself..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She was in good health!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Who then, do I blame.?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I said to her

I waited trembling.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Would this be the day?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

So, i spoilt her more .

But ive been too sick for many years..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

When she asked me how she looked .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My life is so biszare .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And i lived it daily.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Im still living with it.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was seconnd youngest,

She loved him until the end.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I will be 64.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So whats the point in blame.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.